While in the process of dissolving my 22-year marriage, I began uncovering and letting go of old patterns and beliefs about being in relationships. I had been operating out of the paradigm that marriage is a transactional agreement and that I had to earn love, instead of it being gifted freely and generously.
I thought I was solely responsible for the success of my relationship, and if it wasn’t working, I needed to try harder or do more, or somehow twist myself into a different shape. Eventually, I was so twisted and tangled that I no longer recognized myself. Eating Lies, Deep Grooves and Contorted were created during this process.
While creating these coffins I thought about how these patterns came to be, what it would take to unknot the fear and stop contorting myself to please others, and what it looks like when a healthier pattern is in place. Creating this artwork was about laying these patterns to rest and provided a sense of completion that was integral to the process of saying goodbye to this marriage and shifting the unhealthy relational patterns that had been in place for so long.